Showing posts with label Writer's life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Writer's life. Show all posts

Can't Write Worth Shit

>> Friday, December 18, 2009

I wish our brain came with a defragmenter, like our computer hard drives.

With everything going on around me--both writing and non-writing related, my mind is all over the place. And, boy, does that mess with my writing.

I know everyone suffers from distractions, as my CP, Elisabeth Naughton, can currently attest to. Lately, mine have been ramping up, and between the writing related stresses and the home stresses, not to mention the holidays and work, I swear my gray matter is pinging around beneath my skull like a game of computer pong.

How I miss the days, not so long ago, when I could immerse myself in my characters, daydream about their lives, their loves, their goals, their troubles. It's so much easier to deal with someone elses troubles, isn't it? And even easier when you dole these troubles out to fictitious characters knowing how you'll remedy them in the end. (At least vaguely.)

Yes, real life really does intrude on a writer's life sometimes. But I guess I'm going to have to figure out a way to write through it, because I don't have any plans on giving up writing and real life will always be there. Every minute of every day.

Sometimes I get so caught up in my characters, I have to remind myself that's a good thing.

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Showing Up

>> Monday, October 19, 2009

It's a principal that I've always believed in...showing up.


Very early in my writing, I developed a routine. Back when I didn't work as much as I do now, I got up with the kids, got them off to school and headed to my local McDonalds where I had an easy, cheap breakfast and a place to sit and write as long as I wanted (with free refillable drinks).

This may sound organized or disciplined or whatever...but it evolved out of a different need. My need to get away from the everyday demands of the household. And after a very short time, it became my own little social mecca. All the regulars, all the staff, knew me and I knew them. After years of writing, we're more like an extended family than strangers eating at a local McDonalds.

I continued to return to the restaurant regularly for the camaraderie, the distraction, the space to be alone, yet not be alone while I toiled through the latest WIP. What I found was that simply showing up and opening the laptop screen was more productive than I ever imagined. Every day I did that--even if I'd only done it for the pretense of having a reason to sit there--proved productive. Some days, I'd simply read over my work and think about it. Some days I'd plot because the prose wouldn't flow. But many days--most days--I wrote. And on those days, amazing things happened. Unexpected plot twists, previously unconsidered character depth, the random appearance of theme that deepened the work materialized.

All because I showed up.

On an odd parallel: I've been on a steep learning curve when it comes to my photography hobby. I've got a great camera. A ton of accessories. Haunt Internet photography tip sites. Have taken classes from professionals. Yet, my photos are consistently...less than what I expect.

Yesterday on the way home from a strenuous rafting trip, I was daydreaming out the window as my husband drove and my kids slept. The sky was an interesting mix with an incoming storm. As the sun started to drop, it became even more beautiful. For a fleeting second I thought, "I need to photograph this." Then I thought, "No. Too much work. I'm too tired. Just going to enjoy the beauty."

As I ogled the sky, I asked my husband, "My camera isn't sitting around here somewhere, is it?" He said, "Yeah, it's right here." So I picked up my little point and shoot (b/c the really nice one was packed away) and took some quick shots through the passenger's window. Just because. Just to be there. And this was one of the shots I came out with.



It was me, being there, making that extra effort just to "show up" so-to-speak that created this photo. Not the subject. Not the equipment.

So I keep showing up, because these are the little gems that make it all worth the effort. In photography, in writing, in life.

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O.M.G.

>> Monday, October 12, 2009

This is how I feel thinking about rewriting these mss with the new paranormal twist.

It's not just a little thing. It's changes in all the details, character, plot. It's an overarching storyline. It's backstory.
It's exhausting just to think about.

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Grrrrrrrrrr....

>> Saturday, September 19, 2009

Stupid story. It's jumping all over the friggin' place. Can't keep anything straight. I feel like grabbing my characters by the throat, shaking the jitters out of them and screaming, "Just tell me what the fuck happens already!!"

And on a happier note...a photo of the day...

Starfish in the tidepools at Montana de Oro, Los Osos

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Issues...

>> Monday, September 14, 2009

I suppose everyone has them in one form or another. I have lots of them. My question is...if I know what my issues are, and I know how to fix them, why don't I? Why do I continue to use them as a crutch?

A few days ago I wrote about procrastination. Yes, I know I do it. In fact, at the risk of sounding cocky, I'm damn good at it.

What have I been doing with my evenings after my long, strenuous days at work when I should be writing? I've been optimizing my photos and submitting them to stock photography websites.

Why, why, why do I do this when I know I need to be writing? Is it because I really don't like writing? Is it because I don't like this manuscript? Is it because I don't want to face the hardship of untying the tedious knots in this work?

I don't know. What I do know is that it's much easier to come home after a long day and do something mindless, like upload photos to the web than dig into my tortured hero's screwed up head and try to straighten the idiot out.

That's my story and I'm sticking to it.

But...I have put my stock photography junk to rest and will open my wip to at least look at it and see if I can unravel even a tiny knot -- the first step in detangling the bigger ones.

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